Day 10: A letter to your best friend(s)

 Dear girls (well, and a guy),

You all are remarkable. Some of you may are not exactly besties with some of each other, but that is OK. I don't expect you to be BFFL with others. What do I expect from you is your support, your comfort, and your sense of humor .

You were there when I needed you. You gave me comfort when I need it. You made me laugh when I needed it. I hope I am able to do too for you.

To be honest, if a person ask me who is my best friend. I'll say 'yo, I haz squad 4 lyfe'. You are the ones I ask for opinions, advices and jokes. You all are so different from each other and surprisingly sometime very similar. Maybe that's why I like you, after all you all love Netflix and movies. I always can ask you guys to Netflix and chill, and then literally watch Netflix and chill.

You are ones I will ask to come with me to an event. So, I will have somebody to chill with if I am awkward around other people. You all are very independent people and I know you will be fine if we wandered away from each other during an event but I like the fact that we always come back to each other after wandering around because... just because.

Best part about you, it is TMI everyday. Sometime, you will apologize for being giving little too much information. I mean, we go in bathroom together and chat with each other while we pee. We are beyond little TMI.

Foodie, you're an amazing person to eat with. I hardly can keep up with you when you're on food adventure, but it is always enjoyable. Sometime I will cry a little inside thinking all money it went to food, but I never regret it because you show me how to appreciate what we can have.

You're hard-working person, and I admire your hard work. Even though you nearly always sleep in classes, you still get A's. That is pretty impressive, girl.

I can go just crazy and I know you will go just crazy with me and once in a while we have had lost the control, and once we have gotten into fight with each other. One of those night, we got into a kind of physical fight with each other, but an hour later - we acted like it has never happened. It shows that even though we can get really angry at each other, we always forgive and love after. Those little bits that riled us don't really matter much.

You're also wonderful person to travel with. You're adventurous, and I always get excited to have a last minute decision to go one way or other even though we would drive each other nuts during the adventure. I appreciate you being willing to go on a spontaneous decision and not knowing where we will end up at the end of the day.

You're on the path becoming your dream, and it is a long and hard path. You're more than half way already. I can't wait for you to become a teacher and see where that will take you to.

Pineapple, you're weird and I love it. I love the name for you, it shows so much personality of you. Your never ending support is something I always can rely on. I always can whine and and complain about everything and in the return you will whine and complain about everything. We are going through very similar situation right now and more than ever, you're reliable. We are starting to achieving our dreams, I am holding your hand as you are holding my hand as we go through this.

You have an unique sense of fashion that sets you apart from surrounding people. I always thought you carried the air of sophisticated city girl (kind of obvious, seeing where you grew up near NYC). I would go to you for fashion advice - this earring or other? Also, I would go to you for spring cleaning. By the way, THAT WAS PAINFUL EXPERIENCE. You stabbed through my heart without a mercy when we went though clothes to get rid of. But it helped me.

I like your laugh too, it is funny and so you. I like debating with you, we do have different opinions and I like it when I see from other perspective and makes me rethink about me and consider about with my perspective with different opinions in my mind.

Cat lady, did I ever told you how much I appreciate for all those dinners you cooked for me? I miss your taco dinners. Tacos here are pretty good - but sometime I would like to have a homemade taco, and yours is the one I thought of. You're awesome person to receive fashion advices too. I would pop in your room and look in your mirror then ask you for your opinions. You always have suggestions to give, and you got me hooked to leather leggings.

You're admirable person, after an obstacle and next,  and you're still there and kept finding ways to go around. Your post telling about your struggle of finding the job has inspired me and many others because your struggle resonated with rest of us. Not lot of us are able to put it in words so eloquently. It shows that you have been put down more than should have (which should have been never!!), but you always gotten up and kept going. Not lot people can do that, and I always admired you for that.

I know I frustrate you and we drove each other crazy at some days, snapped at each other and being a grumpy old hag toward each other. But, we do talk about it and resolve the issue. I like that, I like the ability to talk to you upfront what was bothering us, and what frustrated us. Admittedly, I am sometime stubborn about staying mad, but I can't stay mad forever and I much rather to have a silly conversation with you. Like that morning before our road trip, we went rwar rwar at each other but we talked about it. The day ended up amazing, and I really enjoyed myself on that day.

Hiker, you're going through lot right now. You're discovering more about yourself and I am very glad that I am part of it and able to watch you grow. You're not the same girl when I first met you, and you're not the same girl from the last time I saw you. You're constantly growing and becoming a woman that you are and will be. Sure, you might be little bit lost right now (or not, maybe you're not even lost right now) but you have your head on your shoulder and you're able to soldier on, and that is amazing. Your post about struggle is also wonderful, it is a worst secret ever kept - how true it is. You have told us what we were trying to tell, and with that, you did something that not lot of us could express. I always have enjoyed your writings, you have it in you. You (and cat lady), know how to show your voice and personality through writing.  I always enjoyed it because I can see you talking as I read your writing.

Your dreams to hike those trails are inspiring, even though I am little bit nervous about having you going alone. I know when you set your mind on it, you will be accomplish it. And I will one of proudest people waiting for you at the end of the trail (physically or spiritually).

I love your sense of humor. I like it when you make a funny. You are always the one to go to if I want to go on a camping trip. You can tough it out and live on a dirt floor if we had to, and I always enjoy going on hikes with you. We have similar interest in nature, biology and lack of interest in chemistry and physics.

Actress, you're an insanely crazy woman. You drive me crazy and sometime push me over the wall. Woman, you know how to push my buttons and piss me off. That's OK, because I know how to piss you off too. To this day, I still giggle when we were fighting and in the middle of it, you screamed at me, I quote you, "I will die young because I am always angry!" How was I supposed to reply to that?

We started college together, you were so outgoing and you shined so brightly, and along the way you made a few mistakes that took you down. But that didn't stop you from shining. I watched you grow. I watched you fall down and beaten. I watched you falling apart and couldn't put yourself back together. I watched you slowly taping pieces together and became fragile you. I watched you rediscovering yourself and became stronger. You stopped being so angry all the time, and you have learned to let things go. To be honest, just four years ago or so, you would be easily upset and get mad at me for moving away from home. After all, you moved to my hometown and you left your home to move to mine.

We learned that we can be what we want to be without being together all the time. I've known you for nearly 10 years now. 15 years old you wouldn't imagine where and who you are now, although one thing hasn't changed... your love for pink.

You are not always angry anymore. You are much happier than 18 years old you, because you discovered that you are THE ONLY ONE who can make you happy. Sure, I can make you happy, your significant one can make you happy, your family can make you happy, and just about anybody can make you happy. To be truly happy - you are the only one with power to make yourself happy.

Least but not last.

J, I miss your seal-like barking laughter. Don't deny it. Even the zookeeper who works with seals says your laughter sounds like it. I like it because it comes from deep inside you. I know what you're thinking when you're reading that statement, shut up. You're probably laughing at this right now.

I love it when I can talk to you just about anything. And to be not judged at all. I like to be able to listen to you talk and let you vent. I also like the fact that we know we don't need to talk every day to know that we are there for each other. We just know. We don't need to tell every details (and we never peed together in same bathroom seeing you're guy and I'm girl, that would be just weird), to understand each other.

I like your brutal honesty. It hurts sometime but the truth is never painless. From Oscar Wilde, one of my favorite quotes, "The truth is rarely pure and never simple". If I decide which quote suits you the best, this would be your quote.

Well, that was a long and mushy letter. Ick.

Can you all come here, watch Netflix and chill. Please? Don't forget to bring the dippy, fried Oreo, poutines, mozzarella stuffed meatballs, tacos and challah french toasts. Thanks.

Love,

Danica