Day 9: Something you always think "what if..." about.

As part of my rule, I generally try avoid 'what if...'s, whenever there is an event and I know I will ask 'what if...' if I decided to go or not, I usually try and go ahead decide the choice with least chance of me asking 'what if'.

But there are some 'what if...'s that I couldn't avoid. Those were also 'could have's.

I sometime wondered what it was like if I didn't have boyfriends during my undergrad years. I wondered what if I ended up didn't become friends with who I am friends with now. What if I went to that party that I missed once. What if I decided to make a choice of not going on road trip around the United States. What if I chose WorldTeach job over Etosha internship. What if I decided to stay at home to save some more money instead of moving to other side of the country.

Those are 'what if's that I don't care much about because they are choices I am glad that I didn't make.

I mean, some of those 'what if's, I do sometime wish I made a choice other way but I don't at the same time. Those choices are ones that make who I am today. And I like who I am today. I could have make one choice differently and that could make me a even better person but who knows. Maybe I needed that certain avoidable experience to make me into person who I am today.

I try don't look back too much, because what is have been done is done. So, I look forward and make my choices based on which ones I would wonder more about 'what if'.